Upon This Rock I Will Build My Church!!

3 million Israelites were lead out of Egypt but only two made it into the promised land. Wow, I have to ponder that for a moment ... that percentage is staggeringly small!!  So if I relate that to the church which is a type of Israel, more accurately it is spiritual Israel. Then I conclude that most of what calls itself the church today is not going to make it into the promise land (Heaven)! Ok, that thought is very sobering for me!! Now I have to go and revisit, research and write down everything that the Israelites did wrong (and do the opposite)!! But as for the church -- what to do? Just plain common sense tells me to stay away from a place where only two people out of 3 million will succeed!!

I visited some churches in NYC, my area and I went away crying and saddened! Following is my church experiences thus far, (including but not limited to):

Trinity UMC, Bronx, NY -- The church that I grew up attending, I literally cried at a yearly conference last year when I saw that they allowed gays to march for rights in the conference!?!  Recently TMUC got a new Pastor and he sets off my gay-dar! IDK jury is still out (cause I haven't been back).

Fordham UMC, Bronx, NY  -- Visited this church and literally cried there because the Pastor looked like a flaming sodomite (homosexual for those that don't know the Biblical word), now to be fair I did not ask him if he was a sodomite, but he was "quaking just like a duck" all over that Pulpit! Further to that, the Choir was a paid Choir selected from Broadway (literally) and there were flaming Sodomites in the Choir too (again visually, not confirmed)!!

Allen AME Cathedral, Jamaica, NY -- Visited a "conference" there last year and chaos and greed were on display! Very ungodly impression for me. Everybody was given dance costumes to run around in. They called it "praise", but there were no hymns, no harpist and no Director anointed in leading a congregation spiritually open and wrung out before The Throne of God! Instead chaos and "gospel" music. Then if that disorder wasn't enough the guest speaker was a gospel artist who basically sang his message then proceeded to beg for money demanding to have a $100, $50 and $20 line for offerings that after the church had already taken three offerings ????????????????????? He said "nothing smaller because he's believing in God's best" ??????????????????? Maybe that wouldn't make you cry but it did make me cry (after I left the building, of course :-(( ). Oh, I forgot! the icing, there was a store for merchandising just outside the Sanctuary doors!?!?!?!? Also I went onto their website under looked their (too-many) Ministries and they Had listed, Busy Bees (lol) where is that listed in scripture?

side point: churches have too many ministries and programs to "fix broken Christians", but the Psalmist teaches, the sacrifices to God are a BROKEN spirit and a contrite heart. IDK, it seems to me that if they keep fixing us Christians then we can never become a sacrifice to God?? Just counter-productive or Anti-Christ? Sacrifices have always been presented dead in the Bible, so stop fixing me!!!!

I have other church visits to blog about but I'm tired of typing now:

Crenshaw Christian Center ("CCC") East, New York, NY -- Like some aspects of the church, the then Pastor _______ did seem like a servant, had a "past" -- like me, so I could relate to him! But the structure of service was a stumbling block for me and I like to believe it was for him as well but IDK, he was in a word-of-faith based church so at minimum he must be confused or misguided to quote a favorite Pastor of mine Gary C. Price: "lost as a ball in high weeds!" lol (OmegaMinistries.org)

Times Square Church ("TSC") New York, NY -- Nice word-based church!! Sorely lacking KOINONIA (highly transient following, thus speculative)  -- I participate in the Lord's Supper on Tuesday's but without communion by intimate participation, might as well leave it off, huh???

Koinonia (Wikipedia)

Koinonia is the anglicisation of a Greek word (κοινωνία) that means communion by intimate participation. The word is used frequently in the New Testament of theBible to describe the relationship within theEarly Christian church as well as the act of breaking bread in the manner which Christ prescribed during the Passover meal [John 6:48-69, Matthew 26:26-28, 1 Corinthians 10:16, 1 Corinthians 11:24]. As a result the word is used within the Christian Church to participate, as Paul says, in the Communion of - in this manner it identifies the idealised state of fellowship and community that should exist - Communion.


Creflo Dollar NYC ("CDNY") New York, NY -- Can't remember what he calls this "church" [my notes to follow soon]

Greater Anointing Tabernacle, Bronx, NY -- [my notes to follow soon]

Salvation Deliverance Tabernacle, New York, NY -- Oh my!! [my notes to follow soon] I have to take my time with this experience because it is not to be believed! Did not leave crying, I've learned to check my expectations at my prayer closet (pretty much just attending churches for the show and spectacle, but never on a full stomach -barf)

Aahh, there's the rub! I knew if I just wrote long enough clarity would prevail.  OK, even though only two (true Believer's), Joshua and Caleb made it in to the promised land. They were chosen out of the "church" (Israelites) -- not from the world!! This is significant for me!!! I had become disgruntled, disheartened, disillusioned and devastated, etc. (can't think of any more D words). Alas, the wheats HAVE to grow along with the tears! Seems that I will have to keep going to these God-forsaken places (churches)!!

Amos 8:11-14

English Standard Version (ESV)

 ¹¹"Behold, the days are coming," declares the Lord GOD,
   "when I will send a famine on the land—
not a famine of bread, nor a thirst for water,
    but of hearing the words of the LORD.
¹² They shall wander from sea to sea,
   and from north to east;
they shall run to and fro, to seek the word of the LORD,
    but they shall not find it.